So, since my last entry things have been.....interesting....
Good interesting or not I am still undecided on that part.
I have , for the most part, kept up with drawing every day. I don't post as much cause...well I just don't feel like it much anymore. I haven't drawn in my sketch daily book as much as I would like to. I kinda stopped with it but I hope to pick it up once again and I am still using my regular sketchbooks two of which i have almost completed with practice sketches and what not.
So I still haven't really made a completed drawing. There are things I am still learning, styles I am trying and a lot I have to overcome. I feel stronger than ever and more determined than ever to get these things in order and get them right again and really get my art groove on.
Part of me still regrets leaving my apartment. I miss it A LOT. There were a lot of things wrong but what was right was me and my husband being on our own and independent.
However, recently I lost my aunt to lung cancer. After diagnosis it just took over and killed her within two weeks. It was heart wrenching, terrible and I feel I've bounced back a little from it. I still have anxiety about that being my fate one day or something similar, but we're taking steps to help ease these woes. Right before that I also lost a job I was hired into. I won't go into details but I learned none of it was my fault or bad on my character so that feels good. Lady was just an outright twat. So may was a hard month, as always.
I may not get to see my nieces either and that is. That just stings on a level I never knew existed.
I have learned through this that I really want to put more of a focus on traditional art. I feel digital is wonderful and I enjoy it, but there is something so soothing about putting pencil or marker to paper and watching it sink in.
Through all the pain of the last month I learned a lot about myself and the people around me. I learned how absolutely magnificent they all are. Truly the Gods blessed me with friends better than anyone could ever ask for. I don't really have words to properly tell anyone how wonderful they are. They are the family I had the privilege of choosing and the privilege of being chosen by them.
And I gained a boyfriend too. My husband and I have a magnificent relationship one that's always sort of been open, but we never really talked about it or set many rules. Last year around this time we had talks and decided why not keep things open? It allows for so many new experiences, new chances to meet people and so much more. We're excited, we're happy and I feel so lucky to have such a marvelous man to call my husband and one so sweet to call boyfriend.
With all my gushing done I truly hope to find more artist friends in the northwest Indiana area to hang out with. I really do.
Perhaps my dream isn't so far off and foolish as some like to believe.